sunny day.

cameo, the cutest dog ever!

25 days.

in 25days its my birthday and i'll be turning 19?! sheesh feels more like im turning 40 with this mentality lmao. i want presents for my birthdayy :] k-thanks lol

3 days.

theres only three days left until my BF* leaves to the Army. im gonna miss him, his presence, his laugh. its gonna be a long time until we see each other but its a test that we'll past. i love you babe

-zftszs.

  

  

= O427O7 ♥ Forever :]

Red Lobster.

yum :] Ricky, Me, and Daddy 01/05/10

new york.

so the BF and i went on a road trip to *dun dun dun* New York! it was a good experience, except the traffic and the drivers. while i was driving my daddy and ricky were absolutely knocked out snoring as i drove there :\ and through out the trip.. i still drove. so approximately min of 12 hours i drove in total. we went shopping, walked in the cold, drove some more, and shopped. now one thing i can say about New York's shopping is that everything is cheap! i got some nice shoes for $25 but EXCELLENT quality. i enjoyed it especially when we ended the trip eating Red Lobster :] yum that was delicious! their drinks were Top Shelf, service was excellent and food.. again was delicious!! lol well thats my trip to New York. now my BF has 6 days till he leaves to the Army in Oklahoma :'[ - ily baby*

12 years.

10/12/59 - 01/01/98 RIP Alvin Hilerio

today was my father's 12yr anniversary. id like to say i miss him, and no matter what i wish him the best in heaven and he will live in my heart until i die. i love you dad and i thank you for making me the person i am today.

goodbye 2009.

"An optimist stays up until midnight to see the new year in. 

A pessimist stays up to make sure the old year leaves."

this year it doesnt matter what i wear; where i spend it; or how i look. ima spend this year with my one & only BF having fun, bottoms up drink goes down. i will enjoy the hardships, the happiness, the tears, and smiles its brought me. and im aware that 2010 is gonna be better than 2009 worse than 2011, so im going to be optimistic of the year to come, and of what its gonna bring. my smile's on and i will smile at the 13 days i have left with my other half :'] ily baby. Happy New Year's Eve everyone!

serenity.

God grant me the serenity 

to accept the things I cannot change; 

courage to change the things I can;

and wisdom to know the difference.

waves.

Lately all i dream is of killer waves. Im talking about 30-50ft waves. Ill usually be somewhere tropical or at least near the water, and they start right when i get there. I see, feel, hear myself drowning, crying for help but so is everyone else. Ive been having these dreams for years and idkk what they mean. Is it a sign? Vision? Nightmare? Idkk but its freaking me out.