goodbye 2009.

"An optimist stays up until midnight to see the new year in. 

A pessimist stays up to make sure the old year leaves."

this year it doesnt matter what i wear; where i spend it; or how i look. ima spend this year with my one & only BF having fun, bottoms up drink goes down. i will enjoy the hardships, the happiness, the tears, and smiles its brought me. and im aware that 2010 is gonna be better than 2009 worse than 2011, so im going to be optimistic of the year to come, and of what its gonna bring. my smile's on and i will smile at the 13 days i have left with my other half :'] ily baby. Happy New Year's Eve everyone!

serenity.

God grant me the serenity 

to accept the things I cannot change; 

courage to change the things I can;

and wisdom to know the difference.

waves.

Lately all i dream is of killer waves. Im talking about 30-50ft waves. Ill usually be somewhere tropical or at least near the water, and they start right when i get there. I see, feel, hear myself drowning, crying for help but so is everyone else. Ive been having these dreams for years and idkk what they mean. Is it a sign? Vision? Nightmare? Idkk but its freaking me out.

aww.

Well today i sold my MyTouch and me and my baby traded a line 6 spider iv amp for his G1. So now he has an amp for his electric guitar and i have my android phone w/ a keyboard. THATS LOVE!

what if.

so what if the world we lived in was just another dimension? what if there was more out there than known to man-kind? what if love was real? if love lasted forever? what if relationships were sincere? what if when we said death do us part, it actually meant death do us part. what if high school sweethearts lasted all the way till our 100th bday. as elders what if we died together in our sleep peacefully? what if we kept our words? kept our promises? what if there was no pain? what if there was no hurt? distrust? no disappointment? what if there was no one else but you? what if you were all alone in this world? what if you only cared about yourself and no one else? what if you was able to live life how you wanted without no pain just gain? and what if everything i wrote made sense ..

my christmas present.

so it was 20 days till my BF would have to leave for the Military again.. for me this christmas wasnt about presents, gifts or anything. it was about spending the last limited time with the one i love :] it was the best christmas eve and after that we had a party of two at my house with some amaretto and got it poppin ! we didnt drink and drive :]

oops.

so it was christmas eve and i was told to be ready by four .. it was 530 and my BF still wasnt ready.. lol! honestly he takes longer than me to get readyy and im a girl. hair, make-up, dress, heels and all but i was still ready. so i did a candid shot while he was showering cause i was bored. ily baby ♥

boom boom.

boom boom boom is all i hear now. i bought myself these speakers from best buy and they sound amazingg especially with the bass omgg. right now im cleaning and organizing the house putting these speakers to use.

enjoy it.

"Life is short and we have never too much time for gladdening the hearts of those who are traveling the dark journey with us. Oh be swift to love, make haste to be kind."

dammit.

today I woke up from my nightmare.. sneezing! actually none stop sneezing, like so far ive sneezed like twelve times without a break. arghh >:O so i made my favorite which is hot chocolate with whipped cream :]

on repeat.

You love me like words can't explain
For me to feel the same ws all you want to gain
You never claim that the dollars made me change
But the models giving brain
I guess that could f*** with your brain


Hurt your heart in the worst way
Never should have let you fall in the first place
But you've fallen, put your all in
Now you're so high off love you don't wanna get down


Most nights she aint sleep
Worried where I might or I might not be
Sheesh! for the life for me
Man what a life I lead


(chorus)
You kept me on this pedestal
No matter how much I let you down (down, I let you down, down, down)
With all my infidelities
You loved me so incredibly
Inside I'll fall apart
If you ever love someone instead of me (instead of me)
[ So you deserve a better man (instead of me, instead of me) ]


Clock won't stop ( tick, tock )
Her love is going, going, going- by the minute
Going, going, going- she keep giving


But I know she can't take it
Still her heart I keep breaking
So Ima let love go
Cause I don't deserve her love no more


Sad story
She mad for me
And mad at me
Sad that we
Can't exude love
Not a true love
Cause it's all screwed up


(chorus)
You kept me on this pedestal
No matter how much I let you down (down, I let you down, down, down)
With all my infidelities
You loved me so incredibly
Inside I'll fall apart
If you ever love someone instead of me


How do you fix a love undone
How you even know if youre fit to love someone
And when you decide to take that ride
Can you drive from the passengers side
One wheel in the middle
Four hands on it
Two sets of breaks
You decide to slam on it
God damn woman
Where the love go
Whip crash will you get whiplash
Sit back cause you won't get sh*t back
But think if you tried to get what you jus had back
She mad at facts
And you can't be mad at that 
(You can't be mad at that)


(Clock won't stop- tick, tock x2)
You kept me on this pedestal
No matter how much I let you down (I let you down)

definition of love.

"Love - a wildly misunderstood although highly desirable malfunction of the heart which weakens the brain, causes the eyes to sparkle, cheeks to glow, blood pressure to rise and the lips to pucker."

inseparable.

"Love is inseparable from knowledge."

first is.

"The greater love is a mother's ; then comes a dog's ; then a sweetheart's."

penguin love.

"But to see her was to love her, love but her, and love her forever."

i cant live without you.

"I have felt it and lived it and now it leaves me here, love is the ultimate pain and joy, without it you die with it you perish."

mirror test.

"I am a big believer in the 'mirror test.' All that matters is if you can look in the mirror and honestly tell the person you see there. that you've done your best."

accomplishment.

"Dictionary is the only place that success comes before work. Hard work is the price we must pay for success. I think you can accomplish anything if you're willing to pay the price."

love what you do.

"Success is not the key to happiness. Happiness is the key to success. If you love what you are doing, you will be successful."

jealousy.

"There's always something about your success that displeases even your best friends."

success.

"The secret of success is to do all you can do without thought of success."

so true.

"Experience is the name every one gives to their mistakes."

memories last forever.

"May you never forget what is worth remembering, nor ever remember what is best forgotten"

intellectual people.

"An intellectual is a person who has discovered something more interesting than sex."

the one who puts you thru hell.

flamming words burn right thru you as I speak. the thought of me not by yourside is like death whispering in your ear. but yet you still remain here.

lol idkk what else to come up with but I love you babe n I tried this bloggn ish =] 
                                -ricky sanchez jr.

christmas joy.

its about having fun with the ones you love. its not about presents, trees, and material things. thats what society makes it. you can be dead broke and have the best christmas. its what you make it, so enjoy it this year. i grew up without christmas with my family, without presents but as i got older i managed to make it positive cause i had gifts.. gifts from God. i had health, life, a roof over my head and i was fine. but keep in mind im DEFF not religious its just common sense. so please enjoy it cause life is not guaranteed.

yumm.

"Canon - EOS Digital Rebel XSi 12.2-Megapixel Digital SLR Camera with Lens - Black"

i will get this sometime next year :] ♥

the blizzard.

a diamond in coal.

cameo. sometimes people tell me why do i become so attached to an animal. well my "animal" is my life. they dont understand that he has what everyone lacks; which is a lot. such as loyalty, infinite love, compassion, comfort, trust. they stick by you no matter what happens or what they do. this is my long term companion and he's here to stay :] mommy loves you cameo.

he made me do it.

so today i deleted me twitter cause i felt my life was being judged by humans that are imperfect. twitter is fun but after a while it becomes addicting and people start stalking and following. people take twitter to another level. so yes i know NeomiMarie deleted her twitter. SHOCKING! so i told my saggy kenny that and he told me he was surprised. but sadly now im bored so he told me to start a blog. since im such a great writer and i have my inspirational moments and mom talks i thought id fight right in. so Blogger welcome myself, NeomiMarie :]