goodbye 2009.

"An optimist stays up until midnight to see the new year in. 

A pessimist stays up to make sure the old year leaves."

this year it doesnt matter what i wear; where i spend it; or how i look. ima spend this year with my one & only BF having fun, bottoms up drink goes down. i will enjoy the hardships, the happiness, the tears, and smiles its brought me. and im aware that 2010 is gonna be better than 2009 worse than 2011, so im going to be optimistic of the year to come, and of what its gonna bring. my smile's on and i will smile at the 13 days i have left with my other half :'] ily baby. Happy New Year's Eve everyone!

serenity.

God grant me the serenity 

to accept the things I cannot change; 

courage to change the things I can;

and wisdom to know the difference.

waves.

Lately all i dream is of killer waves. Im talking about 30-50ft waves. Ill usually be somewhere tropical or at least near the water, and they start right when i get there. I see, feel, hear myself drowning, crying for help but so is everyone else. Ive been having these dreams for years and idkk what they mean. Is it a sign? Vision? Nightmare? Idkk but its freaking me out.

aww.

Well today i sold my MyTouch and me and my baby traded a line 6 spider iv amp for his G1. So now he has an amp for his electric guitar and i have my android phone w/ a keyboard. THATS LOVE!

what if.

so what if the world we lived in was just another dimension? what if there was more out there than known to man-kind? what if love was real? if love lasted forever? what if relationships were sincere? what if when we said death do us part, it actually meant death do us part. what if high school sweethearts lasted all the way till our 100th bday. as elders what if we died together in our sleep peacefully? what if we kept our words? kept our promises? what if there was no pain? what if there was no hurt? distrust? no disappointment? what if there was no one else but you? what if you were all alone in this world? what if you only cared about yourself and no one else? what if you was able to live life how you wanted without no pain just gain? and what if everything i wrote made sense ..

my christmas present.

so it was 20 days till my BF would have to leave for the Military again.. for me this christmas wasnt about presents, gifts or anything. it was about spending the last limited time with the one i love :] it was the best christmas eve and after that we had a party of two at my house with some amaretto and got it poppin ! we didnt drink and drive :]

oops.

so it was christmas eve and i was told to be ready by four .. it was 530 and my BF still wasnt ready.. lol! honestly he takes longer than me to get readyy and im a girl. hair, make-up, dress, heels and all but i was still ready. so i did a candid shot while he was showering cause i was bored. ily baby ♥

boom boom.

boom boom boom is all i hear now. i bought myself these speakers from best buy and they sound amazingg especially with the bass omgg. right now im cleaning and organizing the house putting these speakers to use.

enjoy it.

"Life is short and we have never too much time for gladdening the hearts of those who are traveling the dark journey with us. Oh be swift to love, make haste to be kind."

dammit.

today I woke up from my nightmare.. sneezing! actually none stop sneezing, like so far ive sneezed like twelve times without a break. arghh >:O so i made my favorite which is hot chocolate with whipped cream :]